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I told my therapist about my work struggles and the different dynamics, etc and she fully understands it all. 

How confusing, shitty, sometimes nice, often convoluted, etc etc etc everything is.

And she had the same conclusion as me in regards to my department with Andrea. She said two things that stick out. After I explained the dynamic in my department she said, "It sounds to me like you're doing the brunt of the work and taken on some of her role as well" and I said "yes". And later on she said "well, I was going to say you can support her in her attempts to do her job but that's not your job. It's hers" 

For context sake, she's referring to me helping her in aspects that are solely her job that she takes full credit for and I should not be doing. 

Because I said later on that "I was doing that and I got irritated because I cannot have another codependent relationship" and she said "yes! It sounds like you are looking at things the right way and correctly identifying different situations"

And this morning, she's now looking for me to lead the conversation on how our department should look and/or be split up because she is so far removed from the bulk of what takes place here. 

She also brought up Tatum and tried asking non-question questions to get my take-- I don't want to give one because it either will be ignored or be implemented without any acknowledgement that it was my doing.

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I'm fucking pissed.

Whitney is back at it again with fucking up minor shit she has no business touching and leaving it to the people who should've been doing this to step in and rectify the situation.

And I'm so fucking exhausted and Andrea's so fucking afraid and I cannot do this with either of them ESPECIALLY with Andrea now reading the Let Them Theory and seemingly using it as an excuse to let people run over her and right through me.

I told her I cannot last the year of dealing with Whitney. And she got more afraid and said "well you have to last the year"

First of all, I wasn't referring to quitting but I don't have to do a gotdamn thing.

I'm not gonna sit here pissed off all year without saying something. 

I've made noise with her. Next is the partners and I told her if none of that works, I am steamrolling because if they do not care about the efficiency of their company enough to step in, if I'm gonna stay here, I will not be subject to this bullshit.